guilt?

I’ve thinking a lot about my Bodhisattva vows lately.  It really makes me question whether or not I could be doing more to help others.  The intention to help others is the backbone of my practice. It keeps me motivated and energized to practice as deeply as I can.  Yet, I still feel like I could give more.  I wonder is this guilt or is this an example of the paramita of energy/motivation?

There are so many  stories of sages chopping their arms off and licking maggot infested dogs.  And yet I am killing of the ants in my kitchen and scheming to depopulate the mosquitoes in my backyard.

flying

I’ve been thinking a lot about my bodhisattva vows lately. Imagining ending the suffering of all beings is a powerful practice.

I was flying home from Kansas City a few weeks ago and was getting a bit agitated from thoughts of my plane’s engine failing. My attachment to my body was rearing its strength. It wasn’t until the last quarter of my flight that I began wishing for the wellbeing of all. This was a powerful antidote to my selfish worries.

I have been quite agitated in general lately due to the usual problems of life. Wishing the wellness of seems to be helping quite a bit.